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So today, two minutes before my alarm went off I woke up. I stretched my arms above my head and then turned my head to the side and then-

CRACK.

And I was hyperventalating in pain, a stabbing pain shooting up the left side of my neck into my skull. My roommate sat up in concern as I was hyperventalating unable to articulate what was wrong. Slowly I sat up and the pain dulled. But then cautiously I tried to turn my head and wham- pain hit.

I soon figured out I could barely move my head up and down or to the left at all without severe pain that left me gasping.

However, it is a Sunday and Chiropractors aren't open. Soon, out of concern my roommate offered to drive me home in a desperate attempt to see if my dad could help me get help. I couldnt even manage to shower, and getting dressed included more sharp pains and gasps. I was miserable and worried.

Once home my dad opened the phone book looking for any chiropractor with an emergency number since our own one didn't pick up!

Luckily a man who works five minutes from our house agreed to see me even though I am not an established patient and the office was closed. He even had to bring his son in with him but he came and opened the office up for have a look at me. Thank GOD.

Well, it was some strain/sprain type of deal. He x-rayed and tried to do adjustments but couldnt even get me in a position where he could work on me in the most minor way. The smallest movements induced pains that had me crying out, and literally in tears. I hated it. I can sit through hours of tattooing without crying or whimpering or anything, not the biggest baby- yknow? I rarely even go to a doctor but it was so intense it was an involuntary reaction when ever the slightest move brought on this pain.

Basically he tried to do what he could to relax the muscles to stop the horrible spasms of pain but ultimately he said i definitely could not lie down, my neck is unable to extend whatsoever and even just sitting or standing the weight or my head on my neck is causing more damage. So I cant sit up, cant lay down.

I have to be reclined at just the right angle that I am not in pain, and once I find that I must ice my neck for twenty minutes at a time every waking moment I can. And not move. Except I have to to get new ice packs. When standing or sitting I hold my head awkwardly forward and to the side and even propped on a pillow I hold it an an awkwad angle because I am so scared of causing mysef pain. So even when not experiencing spasms my neck aches horribly, like there is just no way of being comfortable.

So after that we went to get some ice packs and home to find some way of having me reclined somehow for long periods of time. My dad also has a very bad back so luckily he had this very special foldable back chair that reclines so he let me take that back to my dorm. But I pretty much might have to sleep in it because even if I could lay down in a bed you move too much and I would turn over and wake up gasping in pain. So I need to either be on a couch or reclining chair type deal to sleep, and not laying down but propped.

So here I am stuck in a chair. Even getting up to change ice packs is an ordeal as i move slowly and cautiously so as not to risk the small movement that could set off spasms, they have happened twice so far and are just as bad as this morning. I grimace and have to breathe in and out and not move until it passes and the pain fades. I hate being stuck in a chair, cant drive cant walk around. Thankfully one roomate is still with me or else I would be all alone stuck in a chair. Tomorrow I wont be able to go to my internship and Tuesday I wouldnt be able to dance in my dance class. It sucks.

Also I hate asking people to get me things. I wish Chris were here because I wouldnt feel bad about asking him to help me but he is somehwere very important with his family. I wont lie I'm pretty jealous, even though I couldn't go anyway, now my plans for the day are canceled and I am stuck in a chair.

I dont really feel comfortable enough to really focus on schoolwork and really just want to sleep so I dont have to feel the uncomfortable feeling/pain but I must keep icing. Sitting in a chair and icing.

He also found some mild arthritis in my neck which he said at my age there should be absolutely no sign of that no matter how minor, and now it is mild/minor but just the fact that it can be seen is probably not a very good sign. At all.

I dont want to be crippled =( I dont want to have scoliosis that makes things like this happen more easily than in everyone else. I dont want to be stuck in a chair while my roommates and the rest of the world goes about it's daily life!