Stress

So, there really isn't much to update on except work beginning to pile up.

I have rough drafts of seven poems for my thesis and need at MINIMUM thirteen for each semester. So if none of them get thrown out, which is very unlikely, I am in good shape. However, I have a bad feeling about these poems and this thesis is already making me very stressed as I really don't like what I've written for it so far and am much less inspired in general than I was in my poetry classes. It seems I have to constantly really search for something to write on and then I dont really like the end product anyways, even after reworking several poems tediously. The emotion just isn't in them anymore. This is not promising.

As for grad school apps, they are on hold for now as I need to basically wait until my GRE test and then resume is finished as those are the next steps. I am trying to get the resume looked at this Thursday. Most of the logistics are done (entering info, making online application accounts) and I have a rough draft of an essay which will probably need to be butchered over and over, but it's a start. Then come getting the recs. So, resume, GREs, essay and recs. Probably in that order. I just am impatient to have it all settled and done with, I dont like it hanging over my head. Also, the GREs are positively petrifying, I'm so scared I won't make the minimum score for UNC.

My first paper looms, due Oct 2 and we haven't gotten an assignment yet. It's for Literary Theory, a class which I feel most uncomfortable in. Extremely boring and soporific (GRE word!) and I still don't know the point of the class at all. It's been all philosophy so far and so I'm at a completely loss as to what I'm supposed to be gleaning from it in terms of literature and/or theory. What theory? No one has uttered the word theory since Day 1. Have I been in the wrong class? What scares me is I can't fathom what this paper will be on, much less actually writing an intelligent paper for this class. And my advisor is urging me to get a grad school rec from THIS professor.

Which I'm totally for -_- Or not.

Lastly, I thought work would calm down with a new woman in the office taking over the admin assist. position. However I have work up to my ears! I will be busy my entire shift and have projects that will take days. Will this never end? And I didn't get my last paycheck which isn't exactly very motivating.

So I'm a little stressed, mostly over lit theory and GREs at the moment.