For my other half, with love.



Miscarriage

I did not know what to say
Or how to heal you
In the bright glare of the hospital lights.

It was the second time now
And you seemed so broken
That nothing could make it right.

I wanted to take those shining tears
You would not cry (you were so brave)
And make them into crystal shapes

To make you smile again.
Today I woke up and wished
I could take your pain,

Wrap it up nice and tight,
Paint it gold and turn it into hope.
I wanted to color you a future

Of happiness and white out
All your disappointments.
But I still don’t know how.

My hugs seem hollow
And useless in the face
Of death and crushed hopes.

But now I know you’ll heal
Without the golden ball of hope
I don’t know how to make, or

The crystals shapes I do not have to give
Because last night you showed me your
Strength in those tears you did not cry

In the pain you did not let win
and it was more brilliant
Than shining crystal and gold,

And I know you will be okay.


Flyleaf- Fully Alive

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-d3RYW0YoEk

Grad School update!

So. First big news in a while.

I was accepted to UNC Chapel Hill for Grad school (my first choice).

Unfortunately, the financial aid info and figures have not come in yet, so I cannot say where I will end up. Also, I should probably at least wait to hear from the other schools. I'm trying not to get ahead of myself. Or get overwhelmed by the thought of looking for housing and arranging for my first time REALLY living away from home.

That's pretty scary. Okay, really terrifying. But it's exciting that I was accepted into a phenomenal program and that my future is starting to take shape. And all my hard work is finally paying off. Which motivates me to keep it up!

Now, everyone hope I get floods of mail about financial aid and offers from other schools so I'm not waiting around to make things actually HAPPEN!!!

I feel such exciting news should warrant a longer entry, but really that's about it for now. Ironic. I've been waiting so long to be able to post about grad school and now I find I haven't got much to say...yet.